Hopeful Thoughts


So Sad It's Friday

I know you think that I’m crazy for making such a statement, but I am VERY sad for this week to come to an end. I’ve had a lovely week off from the grind of teaching high school math students, and I am STRUGGLING with the idea of going back on Monday.

I am at a very unique point in my career. I love teaching, don’t get me wrong, but I am so ready to be finished! When I graduated from Meredith College back in 2000 and walked into my first classroom that fall, I thought I would teach full time for maybe five years and then move on to the Domestic phase of my life, taking care of hubby and hopefully raising kids. Well, God has seen fit to keep me in the classroom for an extra 4 years. When this school year ends, a new phase of my life begins.

This year’s students have been a special experience. I was blessed with the opportunity to teach students who failed Algebra I last year. My job has been to work with these students EVERY day for 90 minutes (our school is on an A/B block schedule) with the goal of getting them through not only Algebra I, but also Geometry. I have grown to love each of my students. They are great fun, but along with this love comes a great deal of self-inflicted personal responsibility for their success. Because I love them SO much, I get very frustrated when they don’t do well. It’s HARD to get unmotivated students to do well, so I’ve spent lots of time frustrated.

So, as this school year draws to a close, I have mixed emotions. My desire to be a better wife and future mother have me willing the days to pass quickly. However, my love for my students and desire to see them get their credits cause me to desire more time. Not to mention I will graduate from BTCL this May, and that is an experience I don’t want to end!

My prayer as I go back to work next week is that I will have the patience to take it one day at a time and not wish the days away. Each day is a gift and I don’t want to waste any of it!